Sunday, November 7, 2010

being thankful

I just read another blog. And the dear lady reminded me that this is the time of year to be thankful for the things in our life...and yes, I have to, but I hate to, admit that my heart does not feel as thankful as it should. O yes. you remember that other post I wrote about being thankful...yes. I am trying desperately hard to find contentment by trying to think and write about the things I am thankful for. Contentment in not having MY friends close to me, MY family, MY nephews... OK so obviously I have a selfishness issue here going on too... but ya. I am not trying to have a pity party.(and those of you who have moved away from family to go live with the love of your life will totally understand my point) I am in pain from trying to find 'my place' in a land that is foreign to me.
 I know I do have so much to be thankful for ... James :D, Zoe, and of course a host of people that are what you would call 'new friends'. I love them all dearly. really. I do.

so... for today I am going to be thankful... thankful for the little things. the little things that are in my life right now. things like having a fireplace in my house on this rainy day... thankful that  even if my bread totally and completely did  the hugest flop on me, I got a recipe, and I made croutons!!! yes... today I am going to be thankful for the little things. even the teensy weensy eensy ones...

7 comments:

  1. I have been told that it takes 3 years to feel at "home" in new surroundings.
    Be patient and kind with yourself. It will happen!
    It would seem to me that in choosing thankfulness you will survive and it will become easier.
    Tomorrow is a new days......

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  2. Oh Sweetie, I do understand. I really really do and my heart goes out to you in this struggle to find your place in a new life. I am in such a similar situation, I too have moved away from country and family to be with my husband and it's such a process. I've been here six years and though I like it, I always have to struggle in a way that I wouldn't if I were living in Canada. I don't think it's selfish at all to want those you love around you. It's so human and normal. I read a book on Intercultural marriage in which it said that moving to a new culture or country away from all you are familiar with is actually a very real sort of grief, for a period of time it's like being in mourning!! Anyway, so what you are feeling is legitimate but I have to say how much I admire your effort to be thankful for the small things!
    Take care and big hugs today!
    Colleen

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  3. thank-you Grama K. and my new friend Colleen for making me feel a lot better about my insecurities:) really. thanks. my heart was touched by your words...

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  4. Today I am thankful that I got fun mail from a friend in the form of a cute reusable grocery bag. :)

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  5. And here is another someone who is thankful for a sweet niece and that she sent me a cute bag in the mail...thanks Jennieee:)

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  6. aah. you are welcome you guys:) hope you like them!!! I'm thinking about doing another give-away just for fun!!! not sure what it'll be though yet:)

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  7. Most of the time it is about the small things, but those are usually the ones we take for granted. As a woman who moved away from everything and everyone to be with the love of her life, my advice to you (since I am probably many more years into it than you) is to surround yourself with people that fill you with love and joy, that are there for you when you need someone, those people will become your family.
    The Park Wife

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